Musings on pain

It's interesting, my last partner dumped me and my wife before her divorced me. Both times I immediately went out looking for a roommate to live with. Now, at 40 I realize I have never lived alone. It is somewhat odd to me to come to this realization. It also occurs to me that perhaps I am best suited spending the next 40 years alone. That's n0t exactly correct. My son comes and stays, but it's dad's house, not his.